Autumn

Autumn is on its way today

It's misty murky round our way

A coolness of the morning air

A cool breeze whipping up my hair

Trees looking tired exhausted by the heat

Soon leaves 'll be crackling under my feet

Bonfires give flavour to this time of year

My favourite feast of Modron is almost here

Air

As the element of air opens up to me,

What do I hear and what do I see?

Communication from other worlds

Inspiration puts into these words

Air it follows water

As it's sucked up by the sun

Air it feeds the fire

As it hops skips and runs 

Air is fed out from the earth

Breathed out from trees and plants

Giving life to almost everything

So that we learn to dance

It carries music upon the winds 

It quietly whispers as it sings 

Can be caressing, whistling your name

Or screeching as it's fanned with fury by the flames

Interacts with other elements

None can do without

They each need the other 

Think what they are about 

To your peril do you not learn

What the air can give to thee

Think on it for a while 

And you will learn to see

Round pegs and square holes

A round peg trying to fit into a square hole -  that's me.

Causing friction and creating a jam, trying to live two lives  - that's me.

Changeable and mutable, that's what they say - is that me? 

Tiring of the constraints - that's me

Fed up of feeling my wings clipped - that's me

Decision's made - time to get back to me

That's me

Wakefulness

Sleep evades me yet again

So I get up 

To grab paper and  pen

Minds a whirling

What shall I write

So that I might

Sleep tonight

Going to bed early

The body is tricked

Thinking it's first light

After only four hours  of night

One, two, three and four

Back to bed for dreams galore 

Weary in the morning

Feeling like come down

I drag myself off

To walk the hound. 

Etchings

Symbol etched upon the arm

Weaving in it's sacred charm

Instantly opening up the eyes

Heart and body

Soul again flies

Awen rushing through bardic mind

Spinning and weaving 

For it's student yet to find

The ravyn's call I know it well

I can not venture from it's potent spell

Speaking to me, beguiling me

Holding me within his glare

Those meaningful eyes

That spellbinding stare

Makes me smile, blush and coo

Like a dove

With eloquent words

And visions of love

I feel him as the dragon

I see him as the hawk

The teacher is the ravyn

Listen for his squawk 

The ravyn's call

I hold so dear

I can do nothing but answer

When I do hear

Capturing my heart

Working deep into my mind

Who knows what hidden gems 

The ravyn's call will find 

Sarahmajerra 

Whirling With Dervishes

Round and round and round I go

A hand pointing up

The other below

Red hat on

White skirts swirling out

Ecstatic trance is what it's about

Magic and mystery I do seek to find 

To open my heart 

And to empty the mind

The Sufi's way 

Seeks a oneness with God

In the ways of

the Near East

Realising the Yod

To see in Him as He sees in me 

This esoteric path of Persia

Can be wild and free

Maladies of the heart

We seek to make pure

Fasting and alms giving 

With prayres galore 

The Maraquaba will purify the heart

And cleanse the mind

So next time u need to feel God's breath

Spin with me and look to find

For the Durvishe's ways

Inshallah- God Willing

Will help you to see

The Oneness of you

And the Oneness of me 

Sadness

Visions of nasties 

Danced round in his head

I somehow knew

That I would find him dead

Always expected

Hoping he had not

Conversations of cuttings

And the burnings so hot

I was unable to understand

"The releasing of my pain" 

Yet I always knew 

That it would be his end. 

Glad that he's at peace now

Sorry that I am not

Trying only to remember

The good times

Not the rot

Every time I think i've moved on

Something pulls me back 

It's like being in a chamber

It's like  being on the rack 

Missing, berating, chiding

Going over every thing

I should have known

Paid more attention

Taken that rope thing

Trying not to think

Of the voices

You drank to drown them out 

That look of pain and misery 

What was it all about

Life's lesson's can be daunting

Playing heavy upon my heart

When something tears you both so fully

That you will ever be apart. 

But I know that you are well now

Because you come at night to show

That you have mended fully

And your spirit now can grow

I am glad to see you happy

And I truly try to share

I know that you are around me 

As I feel you on the air

I was so very glad to meet you

It was so fleeting yet so strong

And I forever love you

Because love holds on and on

For ny darling Neil, ten years today 11/02

1971 - 2003